Promises to be kept

Potong rambut - NashaLia
Belanja belt - Adi Ashraf
Attend to tuition - NashaLia, Adi Ashraf
Study hard for exams - NashaLia, Adi Ashraf
Think before i do something or talk - NashaLia
No lies - NashaLia, Adi Ashraf


Teramat banyak sangat la janji-janjiku! But i'll try to keep the promises 1 by 1. SLOWLY :D and i promise that i'll make them come true! I REALLY MEAN IT MOTHAFACKA'S!

Things that reminds me of you and the reason:D

Nurshaheera Nashalia - [ banyak sangat nak list but i'll pick the most simple okay ] Chocolate :)

Reason : Chocolate is what we ate at Desa Parkcity when we first had our time together :D

Adi Ashraf - Selipar!

Reason : Each time dia annoying, rasa mcm nak bagi selipar kat muka dia pun ada. Tapi tak sampai hati. HAHA!

Zarul Hidayat - Dota

Reason : Each time dia call suruh amik dia keluar, lepas amik je, 1st thing he'll ask is " DOTA JOM! "

Jawa - Kereta

Reason : Dia ni pemalas nak bawak moto sendiri. So, selalu nak mintak pinjam kereta.

Differences

Family

I don't know why this month, my family changed alot. My mom and dad never been at home with me that often now. My little brother and sister hardly care because they're still young and having tuition at certain days. I don't attend to tuition class and i don't even know why my mom doesn't want me to. My mom and dad never been there for me anymore. When they're not at home, they're not at home. When they're at home, they change their clothes, and sleep. They don't even give me a goodnight kiss like they usually do. I'm used to my dad because he does this everytime all day. But i don't know what happened to my mom. Why does this happen?

BEFORE

Fazril : Mama, abg nak keluar lepak kat Safa jap boleh?
Mama : Tak boleh! Abg dah janji dengan mama tak keluar rumah time weekdays sebab hari sekolah.
Fazril : Alaa, kejap je. Please?
Mama : When i said no, it means no. Got it?

NOW
Fazril : Mama kat mana?
Mama : Oh mama balik lambat hari ni. Jgn text mama. Abg nak keluar, keluar la. Tapi jangan balik lambat sangat tau! Love you syg!
Fazril : Ayah tak balik?
Mama : Tak. Dahla. Jgn kacau mama. Bye.


Fazril : Mama, abg lapar la. Mama balik lambat lagi ke?
Mama : Mama lambat la syg. Jap mama order Dominos utk abg. Abg nak apa?
Fazril : Haih.. Order je la pape.
Mama : Ok nanti mama balik. Mama nak habis dah ni.

Sedar2, pukul 12 baru balik. Pegi mana? PENANG! WTF?! Drive sampai genting pun tak pernah and now tiba-tiba sampai PENANG! AND DIDN'T EVEN TELL ME THAT SHE'S GOING THERE?! -.-"


Nurshaheera Nashalia

We were so close before, mcm darah dan jantung, kalau darah tak ada jantung, macam mana darah nak pastikan yang seseorang individu itu terus hidup kan? Dan jantung juga, kalau tak ada darah, macam mana dia nak pastikan ia berfungsi dengan sempurna kan? That's how we are before. And now, we're not that close anymore. We're like falling apart. Why? What have i done? Am i that bad to you Nashalia?

BEFORE
Fazril : Hi Nasha.
Nasha : Hey YOU! :)
Fazril : Haha how are you? I miss you soo much!
Nasha : Fine! Aww, me too!
Fazril : U dah makan? How was your day?
Nasha : Dah tadi kat skolah. Oh u tau... (mula la dengan cerita interesting dia and makes me smile listening eventhough i tak paham) :o
Fazril : Oh, do you have tuition today?
Nasha : Yup! pukul 8.30 tapi Mira suruh i pegi awal utk teman dia. Oh and you, i nak bersiap. Nanti i text you ya.
Fazril : Oh really? Okay then. Make sure u makan before pegi tuition! I love you Nasha!
Nasha : Will do, I love you more! :)

NOW
Fazril : Hey Nasha! :D
Nasha : Hi.
Fazril : How're you? U ok?
Nasha : Ya i'm fine. Damn, i muntah2 lagi doh tadi! BOLEH?!
Fazril : Aww, damn. That hurts. Makan ubat tau!
Nasha : Xnk! I xnk makan ubat!
Fazril : Nasha.. U tengah sakit tu. Makan la ubat.
Nasha : SUKA HATI I LA NAK MAKAN KE TAK! NANTI MALAM LA I MAKAN! ANNOYING LA YOU!
Fazril : Oh okay. Chill la! What time is your tuition today?
Nasha : 8.30. Eh you, i nak siap. Bbye!
Fazril : Okay.. I love you Nasha :)
Nasha : Love you too.

My life is not like what it is before. I don't know why when each time Nasha treat me like crazy and i still can stand her attitude. Maybe because i love her so much? I never scold her before and you have no idea how many times i've been scolded by her. She's kind of harsh i know but that doesn't matter. Even if she treats me really bad, i hardly care. I have a heart you know. I do feel hurt but i just don't show it and don't even care. Because what i'm hoping from you is your heart. YOU LOVING ME LIKE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU! Maybe i just SS? (Syok Sendiri) Maybe because i'm stupid? Maybe in her words, i'm immature making she feel so bored with me? Pfft! I don't know. I've never feel this lonely before. I really need Nasha more than everything and this is what i get. Well, at least she still talks to me right? :D

Dream or Reality?

There's this 1 week i was sick and having bad fever. The whole week i've been on bed. i'm damn tired and i don't know why. Usually even when i'm having fever, i'll be still going out and stuffs. So, that means, the 1 whole week i didn't get to see and spend time with Nasha. All this time i've been waiting for Friday because it's a public holiday. So, here comes Friday. I woke up in the morning and everyone's gone. Where could everyone be? So, i go out and have my breakfast. Then i went back home, my parents still not at home :/ I'm getting worried. Then i saw an envelope on the dining table. I took the envelope and read the letter inside. My mom left a letter to me saying that she went to Melaka for a day or two bringing all my brother and sister along -.-" MOTHAFACKA! I then went out and go to cc beacuse Jawe and Zarul wants to play dota. I sit at the stairs outside the cc alone. Then i texted Nasha asking if i can come to her house because i'm bored. She then replied saying "okay". So, off my way to her house. Once i get there, she's watching tv. So i sit beside her. Each time when i hugged her, she push me away like she doesn't want me to be with her. I want to mute her Astro because i want her to take her shower and ask her what's wrong. So i try to take the remote control, she took it away from me. So, i still keep on trying to take the remote from her. Bergusti la Fazril and Nasha at her house. Berguling2 atas lantai berebut remote -.-" i got the remote and she gave me the look. Whatever i'll do, i know she won't even listen to me. So i'll just give her the remote and go inside her room. I play a game in my phone. While playing, she then came inside the room, took the phone from me and quit the game -.-" she then ask me to say sorry to her until she says stop. I then say sorry and keep on saying it. After like 10 minutes, she still havnt say stop! -.-" 5 mins later, she asked me to stop because she claimed that it's getting annoying. (TAU PUN! HAHAHA!) Then she go and take her shower. When she's dressed she sit on the bed and we talked. And there's 1 part she says..

Nasha : U, i ada something nak bagitau u.
Fazril : What is it?
Nasha : Xnk aa! Nanti u nak blik i bgtau u okay. It's not a big deal anyway.
Fazril : AH! U BAGITAU I SEKARANG! I NAK TAU! :O
Nasha : XNK! I CKP NANTI, NANTI LA!
Fazril : Fine.. (turning my face away from her)
Nasha : OK OK! I BAGITAU!
Fazril : Ok. Cte la.
Nasha : Well, i xtau nape dgn i. Tapi ada 1 masa i rasa mcm dah bosan dgn u. Don't look at this in a wrong way. I have no one else. It's just that.. Ntahla! There's 1 night i spent on crying. I wanted to mintak break dgn u. I xtau nape. But then i think maybe i over reacted. I know it's not your fault. You're sick. Maybe i rasa macam.. We're far apart? YAA! FAR APART! THAT'S THE WORD I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR! FAR APART! But it doesn't matter anymore right. You're here right now. Don't take it personally.
Fazril : Ya.. I paham!
Nasha : Maybe i should go watch tv..

Nasha then walk out of her room and watch tv. I sit alone on her bed thinking what i've done until she can get bored with me? I think i just suck. I know i'm stupid. ALWAYS BEEN! I have to change. No matter what! I have to try to be good to her. And i'll proove to other people that i can change to be a BETTER PERSON! I then go out and hug her. Did she really said that? Or am i just dreaming that she said that? What have i done really..

QUESTIONS KEEP ON COMING INSIDE MY BRAIN UNTIL NOW..
LOOKING FORWARD FOR THE ANSWERS ;D
WHATEVER IT IS, I AM TRYING TO CHANGE NO MATTER WHAT! ;D

Motorcycle

It's not wrong to have a motorcycle. It's a technology, vehicle used as transport in this world. Some of my friend's family are rich enough to buy their kids motorcycle. Unlike me, i don't have a motorcycle. Tapi kalau ada motor pun, beragak la! I want to warn the motorist, you do now motorcycle is small and can only fit 3 people at max! So why try to fit in 4++? -.-" i'll tell u a story about an incident that happened to me about motorcycle. Me, my gf, my bestfriend and my bestfriend's gf were having our lunch at Al-Safa. After done eating, we have nowhere to go and anyway, lately days are getting hotter and hotter. Is it the Global Warming? Or is it the heat of all our sins that we've made? HAHAHAHAH! So, we suggest that we go and hangout and Nasha's house. But before that, Nasha wants to go to Watson to buy shampoo. Everyone agrees and off we go riding Adi's motorcycle. 4 person on 1 bike. And i'm the last one sitting on the bike and there's really really no space on the bike! Fantastic isn't it? -.-" we made it to Watson and all of suddent Adi wants to buy a movie to watch together at Nasha's house. After done buying shampoo and movie, off we go. Again, 4 person riding 1 bike and i'm as usual, the last one. I wasn't ready that time because i can't sit properly. Adi then want's to cut off the road so that he doesn't have to do a U-turn to get to Nasha's house. He then RAM his bike when i wasn't ready to sit. And guess WHAT! I feel off from the bike! (tercicir la sorang budak dari moto kat tengah2 jalan tu ya) -.-" a car then honked at me. What do you expect? I got dropped off in the middle of the road! I shouted Adi's name but he didn't even bother stopping and instead, he keep on going straight -.-" MOTHAFACKA! Nasha's then laughed and at the same time, she's worried and scared because i dropped off from the bike -.-" she whacked adi's back and tell him that he left me behind. Adi then stops says..

Adi : WEYH! KO BUAT APE DOH?! CPT LA NAIK MOTO! LEMBAP LA KO NI!
Fazril : APE LANCAU WEY?! AKU DAH JATUH DARI MOTO KO BOLEH NAK MARAH2 AKU?!
Adi : Mana la aku nak tau. Ko tak ckp pun ko x ready!
Nasha : Fazril dah ckp seribu kali dah Adi. Adi je yang buat xtau! (while laughing)
Fazril : Dahla! Pgi la rumah Nasha naik moto. Aku jalan kaki -.-"

After few while..

Adi : Weh, sorry tau!
Fazril : Yelaa.
Adi : CPT LA NAIK MOTO! LAMBAP LA KO NI!
Fazril : (sigh) Yelaa yelaa!
Nasha : Adi bawak slow2 tau. Nanti tercicir lagi. HAHAHAHA!

That was the most stupid incident that ever happened to me -.-" Dahla terjatuh tengah2 jalan! Kena honk dgn kete pulak tu! AND AND, my toe is injured. PEDIH GILA! AND AMAT GELI sebab kulit ibu jari terkopek! -.-" so my advice to all the motorist, NEVER BRING MORE THAN 3 PERSON ON A BIKE! BECAUSE THERE'S NO SPACE FOR THE 4th PASSENGER TO SIT AND YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO THE 4th PASSENGER WHILE THE BIKE IS MOVING! HAHAHA!

DAMN YOU ADI ASHRAF!! MOTHAFACKA!

Fun Fun and Fun!

So, finished 1 week holiday of Chinese New Year Celebration. I enjoyed most of the time during the holiday. Actually, Most?? Naa! I think i love the WHOLE WEEK of the CNY Holiday :) Alot of stuffs happened along the time with my 2nd family. Some of them gado2, tension dgn awek, rampas awek org, sibuk dgn valentine, jatuh dekat celah katil, semua ada laa! But the worst is, ME! Adi put my in the car bonet or whatever we call that. And suprisingly, it's my own car that he put me into. MOTHAFACKA! -.-" Although i'm scared to go through this year because of SPM ofcourse, but this CNY Holiday gave me a good start showing me how wonderful this year is going to be! I promise to someone that i'd spend the whole holiday with her. And i did it. I did it for 2 reason. I did it because I CARE ABOUT YOU and i don't want you to be all alone and I LOVE YOU that's why i want to be with you all the time. I will look forward to have hilarious time like how i had during this holiday with my 2nd family :)

Thanks to,
[**] Adi Ashraf
[*] Zarul Hidayat
[*] Muhammad Firdaus
[*] Nadia Ereena

For spending time with me and make me laugh, happy all the this time during the holiday :D

Special thanks to,
[Wife] NashaLia

For brighten up my life and being with me all the time and i really really enjoyed every single second we had together :D LOVE YOU BABE! MORE AND MORE THAN YOU EVEN THINK! <3

Gratefulness

Do you feel grateful with what you have? Well i used to be ungrateful with my life. I always feel like i'm lame and wanting to die because of my life that truly full of stupid dramas and shits! So, yesterday, i sneak out because i'm stressed. I have this big problem and i don't even know how to sort it out. But i'm learning. As a kid, i have to learn how to be a man so that i know what to do when this problem comes again. I didn't know where to go that night and who to hang out with because i just can't think that moment. So i called Zarul asking where is he. He's at Sungai Buloh with Ibu having dinner. I then go to Desa Parkcity alone because i think i could use a peaceful moment that time. I wish she's with me that time. I really need her that time because i just don't know who else to talk to. She's the one that i really really really trust and love. But that fact is, she's not there with me :( I called her asking if she's asleep. And yeah, she's asleep because she has school tomorrow. At like 1.35 am, Zarul texted me saying that he just reached BSD. I went to Ibu's house to pick him up. After reaching Ibu's house, Rasyid and Boyout is there. After like 20 minuts, Redha came to Ibu's house too. like 25 minutes later, Me, Redha, Zarul, Rasyid and Boyout went to Al-Safa to eat. After we're done eating, we send Rasyid home because he has to go to work tomorrow. After sending him back home, we got nowhere else to go and it's still early to go back home that time. I passed the driver seat to Redha and told him just take us anywhere he wants. He then drive his way to KL. After like 15 minutes journey, he parked the car and everyone in the car remind me this.

Redha : Fazril, this is just for experience.
Fazril : (muka pelik) ape ni?
Zarul : Ha! Nanti abg tau la sendiri.
Boyout : Kalau ko kena tarik, ko buat bodo je. Jangan layan.
Fazril : WEY! Aku takut ni!
Redha : Xpe2, lek je. Ko jalan blakang kita.
Zarul : Papehal, bagitau kteorang.
Fazril : Ergh, okay then.

So we walk at the monorail streets. Then, we reach this place. There's to many cars and people around there. Kind of freaky but i'm being brave to walk there with them. Then there's this small door. Redha then smile at me and said "Be ready" I was like... "HUH?!" HAHAHA! So i just follow him and i thought it was just a pub because it looks like it! Once enter, HOLY MOTHER SHIT OF GOD! PUSAT PELACURAN?! SICKAGE! APE LANCAU WEY! The girls there was like.. "Mari2! 50 sahaja!" OH MY FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING GOD! 50 RINGGIT?! WTF! CHEAP BITCH! ARRGGHHH! Sumpah they're so annoying. Some of them raba2 but luckily deorang tak raba aku! Kalau tak, ada la kepala yang hilang nanti! HAHAHA! Actually, i'm the one that kena worst! One of the girls tarik me.

Pelacur : Sini la kejap...
Fazril : Ergh, No thanks. It's okay.
Pelacur : Sekajap saja! Saya mahu tunjuk awak benda.

I then pull my hands off. Then she grab my shirt. AKU DAH JAMM WEY! REDHA!! MANA KAU?! Then the last thing i saw was Boyout walking out the place. I was DAMN FUCKING SHITTY SCARED! I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS!

Pelacur : Abang nak pergi mana? Jomla ikut saya sekejap.
Fazril : Taknak la! It's okay! I don't want!
Pelacur : Sikit saja..
Fazril : It's okay! SAYA TAK MAHU! FAHAM TAK?!

I then pull her hands off my shirt and walk out that place. FUCKING SCARY! STILL TRAUMA SAMPAI SEKARANG WEY! PUKIMAK PUNYA TEMPAT! ARRRGH! Sampai je luar..

Redha : EH FAZRIL! MANA KO PEGI DOH!
Fazril : PUKIMAK BETUL KORANG TINGGALKAN AKU! AKU KENA TARIK TADI KO TAU!
Zarul : HAHAHA! Amacam? Best tak pompuan tu? Xnk try ke?
Fazril : FUCK! TAKNAK ABG! I RATHER KEEP MY VIRGINITY FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE THAN LOOSING IT ON THAT FUCKING PROSTITUTE!
Boyout : HAHAH! Ni la KL fazril. Ko dah experience kan? Kte nak ko experience je
Fazril : DAHDAHDAH! JOM BALIK!

So, off we go back to BSD! The stuff that happened back there, still haunts me until now. TRAUMA GILA! SUMPAH! That's the 1st and last time i will follow Redha and others to KL! -.-" Dgn tension2 ni, boleh pulak la jadi cmtu. Nasib kepala pompuan tu tak hilang! TENSION TENSION! But, the good thing is, i actually learn something back there. Be grateful with what we have. There's alot of life out there that is thousand times worst than us :)