Differences

Family

I don't know why this month, my family changed alot. My mom and dad never been at home with me that often now. My little brother and sister hardly care because they're still young and having tuition at certain days. I don't attend to tuition class and i don't even know why my mom doesn't want me to. My mom and dad never been there for me anymore. When they're not at home, they're not at home. When they're at home, they change their clothes, and sleep. They don't even give me a goodnight kiss like they usually do. I'm used to my dad because he does this everytime all day. But i don't know what happened to my mom. Why does this happen?

BEFORE

Fazril : Mama, abg nak keluar lepak kat Safa jap boleh?
Mama : Tak boleh! Abg dah janji dengan mama tak keluar rumah time weekdays sebab hari sekolah.
Fazril : Alaa, kejap je. Please?
Mama : When i said no, it means no. Got it?

NOW
Fazril : Mama kat mana?
Mama : Oh mama balik lambat hari ni. Jgn text mama. Abg nak keluar, keluar la. Tapi jangan balik lambat sangat tau! Love you syg!
Fazril : Ayah tak balik?
Mama : Tak. Dahla. Jgn kacau mama. Bye.


Fazril : Mama, abg lapar la. Mama balik lambat lagi ke?
Mama : Mama lambat la syg. Jap mama order Dominos utk abg. Abg nak apa?
Fazril : Haih.. Order je la pape.
Mama : Ok nanti mama balik. Mama nak habis dah ni.

Sedar2, pukul 12 baru balik. Pegi mana? PENANG! WTF?! Drive sampai genting pun tak pernah and now tiba-tiba sampai PENANG! AND DIDN'T EVEN TELL ME THAT SHE'S GOING THERE?! -.-"


Nurshaheera Nashalia

We were so close before, mcm darah dan jantung, kalau darah tak ada jantung, macam mana darah nak pastikan yang seseorang individu itu terus hidup kan? Dan jantung juga, kalau tak ada darah, macam mana dia nak pastikan ia berfungsi dengan sempurna kan? That's how we are before. And now, we're not that close anymore. We're like falling apart. Why? What have i done? Am i that bad to you Nashalia?

BEFORE
Fazril : Hi Nasha.
Nasha : Hey YOU! :)
Fazril : Haha how are you? I miss you soo much!
Nasha : Fine! Aww, me too!
Fazril : U dah makan? How was your day?
Nasha : Dah tadi kat skolah. Oh u tau... (mula la dengan cerita interesting dia and makes me smile listening eventhough i tak paham) :o
Fazril : Oh, do you have tuition today?
Nasha : Yup! pukul 8.30 tapi Mira suruh i pegi awal utk teman dia. Oh and you, i nak bersiap. Nanti i text you ya.
Fazril : Oh really? Okay then. Make sure u makan before pegi tuition! I love you Nasha!
Nasha : Will do, I love you more! :)

NOW
Fazril : Hey Nasha! :D
Nasha : Hi.
Fazril : How're you? U ok?
Nasha : Ya i'm fine. Damn, i muntah2 lagi doh tadi! BOLEH?!
Fazril : Aww, damn. That hurts. Makan ubat tau!
Nasha : Xnk! I xnk makan ubat!
Fazril : Nasha.. U tengah sakit tu. Makan la ubat.
Nasha : SUKA HATI I LA NAK MAKAN KE TAK! NANTI MALAM LA I MAKAN! ANNOYING LA YOU!
Fazril : Oh okay. Chill la! What time is your tuition today?
Nasha : 8.30. Eh you, i nak siap. Bbye!
Fazril : Okay.. I love you Nasha :)
Nasha : Love you too.

My life is not like what it is before. I don't know why when each time Nasha treat me like crazy and i still can stand her attitude. Maybe because i love her so much? I never scold her before and you have no idea how many times i've been scolded by her. She's kind of harsh i know but that doesn't matter. Even if she treats me really bad, i hardly care. I have a heart you know. I do feel hurt but i just don't show it and don't even care. Because what i'm hoping from you is your heart. YOU LOVING ME LIKE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU! Maybe i just SS? (Syok Sendiri) Maybe because i'm stupid? Maybe in her words, i'm immature making she feel so bored with me? Pfft! I don't know. I've never feel this lonely before. I really need Nasha more than everything and this is what i get. Well, at least she still talks to me right? :D