Secrets

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that i can confess

'Till all my sleeves are stained red
From al the truth i've said
Come by it honestly i swear
Thought you saw my wink, no
Ive been on the bring, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
I'm sick of all the insincere
So i'm gonna give al my secrets away

This time
Don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My god
Amazing that we got this war
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars

And everyday i see the news, all the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises, just write it into an album
Seen it straight to go
I don't really like my glow, no , so

Oh, got no reason, got no shame
Got no family i can blame
Just don't let me dissapear
I'mma tell you everything

All My Secrets Away

P/s : I miss you! :'(

Tuesday, 27/4/2010

Saturday, 11:30pm [9/1/2010]
I drove Nasha to Desa Parkcity to talk to her because he had a little bit crisis back there. Once we reached Desa Partcity, she refused to talk to me. She doesn't even want to look at me. I went out of the car to call Zarul. She then pressed the honk of my car. I looked at the back and she was smiling. Then she locked the door. I went to the passenger seat window. She then unlocked the car. I went in and sit with her inside the car at the passenger seat. We talked. After a while, it's sorted. I looked her into her eyes for like 5 minutes. Then i started to kiss her. That is when and where we did our first kiss. I feel like flying :o Then i started to ask her. "Nasha, would you accept me to be your boyfriend because i am ready to accept you to be my girlfriend" She didn't say a single word but instead, she kissed me again. I take that as a "yes" Haha! :D So there our journey begins.

Tuesday, 11:16pm [9/2/2010]
We got into a fight at that time. I forgot what was it about. But what i know is, that i lied to her and that's why she's very pissed at me. We keep on arguing. And Nasha, as usual, her ego is as high as skies. No matter how many times i'm trying to persuade her, she don't even care when i know she actually does. Things that she said to me when i was trying to talk to her, persuade her, really hurts. But i don't take them seriously because what i know, i want to get this done and don't want to fight with her anymore. End up, she asked for a BREAK UP. Wow, that's really not a good start for our first anniversary.

Valentine's Day
Woot! Valentine! My parents is not home for few days neither is my sister because she went to Nilai to sleep with her boyfriend at their house. Her mom in all of sudden let her sleep over "Nadia's house" when her mom never let her sleepover people's house. But oh well. We went out to OU because Adi wants to get something for Dinie, his girlfriend. I didn't know what to get for her on the valentine's day. We didn't even know what to do at OU because it's boring. We went into few shops, she looked at this one zip skirt. She liked it soo much. I said to Adi that i'm going to buy that for her but after we found Adi's stuff. After we got Adi's stuff, we went back to Cotton On to get her skirt. Then, we went to MPH to buy wrapper and card. Funniest part is when she went up to us and i was shocked. I didn't want her to know that i was getting something for her. Haha! :D Oh well, but after we're done wrapping, we're going home. Once we're there, we plan to sleep at my house. With some other friends too. After picking them up, we went to my house. Me and Nasha went to the room and i gave her the first gift that i ever bought to a girl. She was surprised and she kissed me. After awhile, we sleep together. That's the first time we ever get to get our own time to sleep together.

Tuesday, [9/3/2010]
A day before this day, we're just done from our fights. And after i finished school, we text while i'm on my way back home with van. She then started to ask me "Do you have something to tell me?" I was like.. "OMFG! NOT AGAIN! WHAT DID I DO WHAT DID I DO!" She laughed and say "Tapir jea you :D What is it tomorrow?" I LAUGHED MY FUCKING ASS OUT IN THE VAN! HAHA! :D Why would i forget our own anniversary? I thought she's going to start with the attitude again which shows that she's mad at me and as usual, fight -.-" There's nothing great happened that day really. Not much because it's school day and we didn't manage to make time for each other. She has tuition and i reach home late. So at night, we wished each other Happy Anniversary and journey continues as usual.

Friday, [9/4/2010]
This anniversary. I've sacrificed a lot for this one. She likes this book, True blood. She wanted it sooo bad. I spent 3 days looking for the first episode of the story. I've found it but i think it's just not worth it because when she finished reading the book, it won't end nicely because there's too many chapters to go. Then i remember that she asked me about The Notebook story. I started to look for it. But i can't find it. I went back home and google about the book. I found it selling at MidValley. I asked my mom to bring me there and yes! I got it :D we went to Desa Partcity and i gave her the book. That what happened on our anniversary.

Sunday, [9/4/2010]
Yeah, it's mother's day and at the same time, it's our anniversary. We planned to spent time together on Saturday and celebrate mother's day on Sunday. But it didn't went according to the plan. Her mom's away. So does mine. Busy with work -.-" So, better than being all alone, i decided to go over her house and spend time with her. It's pretty great although i asked her to go to dinner with me that night. And end up she's lazy and slept.

Soo our journey continues.... Hoping for the best! :)

[P/S] : We're Forever and will never be separated ALRIGHT! :D

Reply

Thing is, do you really mean what you said back there. I have feelings too sayang. If you really really mean what you've listed on your blog, i am definitely very disappointed. But no i ain't going to give up on you. You know i never did. You know how much i love you. You know how much i want to be with you. You know that you are EVERTHING to me. Even you're being very bossy before, i didn't mind because i know what's going to happen if i say no to you. That's why most of the stuffs i never say no to you. I don't want you to be sad in our journey sayang. I want us to be happy. I want us to enjoy our journey together without tears or sadness. I want us to be forever too. I love you Nasha. I love you soo much.

P/S : Please don't leave me. I can't live without you. And i really miss you soo much saying :'(

Game is on

Game’s on. She doesn’t want to tell me anything. She doesn’t even want to talk to me. Must it be like this each time I made a mistake? Why I’m the one that’s suppose to find out what’s wrong with her. Why can’t she just came up to me telling me that she has something not done with me. Why can’t she cooperate? Why do you lie to me when you said that you don’t want any lies in this relationship. I already stopped lying to you but why are you still lying? Is it because you don’t believe in love anymore that’s why you’re doing this to me? Is it you don’t like me anymore that’s why you’re doing this? is it the grudges you been holding from other guys that treat u like shit before that’s why you’re doing this? I’m not them. Everybody’s different. I often hear she saying “NI LA LELAKI! SEMUA SAMA JE!” ask yourself. Ask everybody. Is it true? Is every guys the same? If you really think guys are all the same. Ask yourself. Why did you give me a chance? Why did you gave everybody a chance? I’m saying this that doesn’t mean I’ve gave up on you. I havn’t babe. If I did, I wouldn’t be texting you, thinking what’s my mistake that I did. I'm still strong to stand for you and by your side babe. I just want to know until when you want to do this to me. Until when you want to stop yourself from trusting me. Until when you want to remain silent and won’t tell me what’s making u being like this when you know deep inside you, you’re not this. Why are you being a devil behind an angel’s heart? All I’m hoping right now is you to get out of your weird imaginations and thinking. Think positive. Trust me. It’s worth it. If I want to make you like what other guys did to you. I can but I choose not to and I never wanted and didn’t even dare to. Why? Because I LOVE YOU and I WANT TO KEEP YOU FOREVER! You’re mine babe! I’m not going to stop loving you. Not EVER!

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1.What’s your favourite day?
Saturday

2. Whose car were you in last?
Mine obviously

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?
Sibuk je!

4. What color shirt are you wearing?
Light blue

5. How long is your hair?
Short

6. Are you good looking?
Nope!

7. Last movie you watched?
Agent Cody Banks

8. Who were you with?
Alone

9. Last thing you ate?
Famous Amous cookie

10. Last thing you drank?
Milk

11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
Must I remember that?

12. Who came over last?
I’m not pretty sure what does the question wants

13. Are you happy right now?
Yes TOTALLY

14. What did you say last?
I love you Nasha!

15. Where is your phone?
On the table beside me

16. What color are your eyes?
Brownish black

17. Are you left-handed?
Yeah

18. Spell your name without vowels:
Fzrl hzmn

19. Do you have any pets?
Long ago

20. Favorite Vacation?
Ireland

21. What do you dislike currently?
I don’t know :o

22. What are you listening to?
My remix song

23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
Nasha

25. Who makes you happiest?
Nasha and friends

26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Making songs

27. When is your birthday?
27.11.1993

28. Who has the same phone as you?
No idea. Why don’t you google and seach? Idiot.

29. Last time with who you went swimming in a pool?
Adi -.-“

30. Do you read your horoscope?
Nope

31. Where was the last place you bought something?
Berry’s

32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
Normal? It’s just a freaking hair -.-“

33. Do you bite your nails?
Yup! But not infront of people

34. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
Nope

35. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
Already been asked -.-“

36. Myspace or facebook?
Neither

37. How fast have you driven a car?
160 Km/H

39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?
Science and Perdagangan

40. Do you have Verizon?
No

41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
NashaLia

42. Do you have any hidden talents?
Everybody does idiot

43. Favorite Song?
Screamo

44. Do you like to sing at all?
Yep

45. Dream Job?
Business man

46. Where does most of your family live?
Sri Damansara

47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
I have Sibs

48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
I don’t know. You tell me

50. Do you drink?
No

51. Know any other languages?
Malay, English and Chinese

52. Ever write a coded message?
WTF?

53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?
Nope I’m 16 WTF?!

54. Do you have any children?
Soon -.-“

55. Did you take a nap today?
Nope!

56. Who has the same birthday as you?
No idea, again, google and search

57. Ever met anyone famous before?
A lot

58. Do you want to be famous one day?
I don’t know. Maybe?

59. Any Pet Peeves?
Nah

60. Are you multitasking right now?
Always

61. Do you like Britany Spears?
Not really

62. What is your least favorite chore?
Not sure

63. Last place you drove your car?
Uptown

64. Ever been out of the country?
A lot of times

65. Where were you born?
Malaysia

66. Could you handle being in the military?
Yeah

67. What is your average cell phone bill?
Depends

68. Who are you thinking about right now?
NashaLia

69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
With NashaLia

70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
Banyak! Tapi most of them kecik -.-“

71. Are your toes always painted?
I’m not gay

72. How many piercings do you have?
None. But planning to pierce soon :o

73. What are you doing today?
Spend time with Nasha

74. Have you ever been gambling?
Never done that

75. When is the last time you updated your page?
Just did it

76. Do you like rollercoasters?
Yeah!

77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?
Nope

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
Spongebob

79. Last thing you cooked?
Fishballs

80. How's the weather?
Not bad

81. Do you have an e-mail?
Yeah [Rylkiller@hotmail.com]

82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
Put it inside my boxers

83. Last time you were sick?
Few weeks ago

84. What states have you lived in?
Kuala Lumpur

85. Do you wish you could move?
No

86. Do you take all the QuizPox.com quizzes?
Wtf Is that?

87. What is your dream car?
A lot?

88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
I already got her. NashaLia which I think I can never get before :o

89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
Desa ParkCity with Nasha or Nasha’s house to spend time and be with her

90. Are you happy with your life?
TOTALLY

I'm Happy :)

Yes, you can say that i am happy right now. Well, i don't know how to explain but i am happy. Maybe i have 2 important person in my life that i can love, care about and being loved and being cared :) i appreciate what i got right now and i want to keep them forever. They made my day everytime although all my day is shit. But the pressence of them both actually lights it up :) We did alot of activities together. We joke around, "doing homeworks", "studygroup". HAHA! Is sooooooo funny and hilarious. I enjoy every single seconds i had with them.

P/s : To Nasha
I'm working for it to make our book last forever :)

Love you Nashalia and Adi Ashraf

Cheaters ?

Why must people cheat? I don't understand. They already got someone to love and to be loved. But why must they cheat towards their partner? Are they just not good enough? Are you not satisfied with your partner and that's why you cheated? Are you bored with your partner that's why you cheated? Think about it la MATHAFACKA! Just because you're high educated, rich, doesn't mean you can cheat on people you MOTHERFUCKING IDIOT! You have a responsibility, to care and love your partner. What do you get if you cheat? Short term happiness? And then got into a fight and lastly being left by your partner? And when you got busted cheating, you just don't want to admit it and keep on trying to back it up when you just CAN'T? That's just stupid. Think before you do FUCKER! Even me, a stupid person but i am not stupid enough to cheat on my partner. (someone), If i got the person you've been cheating on (someone), I swear to god i'll torn her into pieces. You already hurt (someone) badly. You better leave that whore before i got her. It won't end up nicely.

Dear cheaters, You're a MOTHERFUCKING PIECE OF SHIT! Doesn't matter how important you are to me you're still a piece of CUNT! GO KILL YOURSELF IDIOT!

P/s : I didn't write this to you. It's to somebody else.