Gratefulness

Do you feel grateful with what you have? Well i used to be ungrateful with my life. I always feel like i'm lame and wanting to die because of my life that truly full of stupid dramas and shits! So, yesterday, i sneak out because i'm stressed. I have this big problem and i don't even know how to sort it out. But i'm learning. As a kid, i have to learn how to be a man so that i know what to do when this problem comes again. I didn't know where to go that night and who to hang out with because i just can't think that moment. So i called Zarul asking where is he. He's at Sungai Buloh with Ibu having dinner. I then go to Desa Parkcity alone because i think i could use a peaceful moment that time. I wish she's with me that time. I really need her that time because i just don't know who else to talk to. She's the one that i really really really trust and love. But that fact is, she's not there with me :( I called her asking if she's asleep. And yeah, she's asleep because she has school tomorrow. At like 1.35 am, Zarul texted me saying that he just reached BSD. I went to Ibu's house to pick him up. After reaching Ibu's house, Rasyid and Boyout is there. After like 20 minuts, Redha came to Ibu's house too. like 25 minutes later, Me, Redha, Zarul, Rasyid and Boyout went to Al-Safa to eat. After we're done eating, we send Rasyid home because he has to go to work tomorrow. After sending him back home, we got nowhere else to go and it's still early to go back home that time. I passed the driver seat to Redha and told him just take us anywhere he wants. He then drive his way to KL. After like 15 minutes journey, he parked the car and everyone in the car remind me this.

Redha : Fazril, this is just for experience.
Fazril : (muka pelik) ape ni?
Zarul : Ha! Nanti abg tau la sendiri.
Boyout : Kalau ko kena tarik, ko buat bodo je. Jangan layan.
Fazril : WEY! Aku takut ni!
Redha : Xpe2, lek je. Ko jalan blakang kita.
Zarul : Papehal, bagitau kteorang.
Fazril : Ergh, okay then.

So we walk at the monorail streets. Then, we reach this place. There's to many cars and people around there. Kind of freaky but i'm being brave to walk there with them. Then there's this small door. Redha then smile at me and said "Be ready" I was like... "HUH?!" HAHAHA! So i just follow him and i thought it was just a pub because it looks like it! Once enter, HOLY MOTHER SHIT OF GOD! PUSAT PELACURAN?! SICKAGE! APE LANCAU WEY! The girls there was like.. "Mari2! 50 sahaja!" OH MY FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING GOD! 50 RINGGIT?! WTF! CHEAP BITCH! ARRGGHHH! Sumpah they're so annoying. Some of them raba2 but luckily deorang tak raba aku! Kalau tak, ada la kepala yang hilang nanti! HAHAHA! Actually, i'm the one that kena worst! One of the girls tarik me.

Pelacur : Sini la kejap...
Fazril : Ergh, No thanks. It's okay.
Pelacur : Sekajap saja! Saya mahu tunjuk awak benda.

I then pull my hands off. Then she grab my shirt. AKU DAH JAMM WEY! REDHA!! MANA KAU?! Then the last thing i saw was Boyout walking out the place. I was DAMN FUCKING SHITTY SCARED! I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS!

Pelacur : Abang nak pergi mana? Jomla ikut saya sekejap.
Fazril : Taknak la! It's okay! I don't want!
Pelacur : Sikit saja..
Fazril : It's okay! SAYA TAK MAHU! FAHAM TAK?!

I then pull her hands off my shirt and walk out that place. FUCKING SCARY! STILL TRAUMA SAMPAI SEKARANG WEY! PUKIMAK PUNYA TEMPAT! ARRRGH! Sampai je luar..

Redha : EH FAZRIL! MANA KO PEGI DOH!
Fazril : PUKIMAK BETUL KORANG TINGGALKAN AKU! AKU KENA TARIK TADI KO TAU!
Zarul : HAHAHA! Amacam? Best tak pompuan tu? Xnk try ke?
Fazril : FUCK! TAKNAK ABG! I RATHER KEEP MY VIRGINITY FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE THAN LOOSING IT ON THAT FUCKING PROSTITUTE!
Boyout : HAHAH! Ni la KL fazril. Ko dah experience kan? Kte nak ko experience je
Fazril : DAHDAHDAH! JOM BALIK!

So, off we go back to BSD! The stuff that happened back there, still haunts me until now. TRAUMA GILA! SUMPAH! That's the 1st and last time i will follow Redha and others to KL! -.-" Dgn tension2 ni, boleh pulak la jadi cmtu. Nasib kepala pompuan tu tak hilang! TENSION TENSION! But, the good thing is, i actually learn something back there. Be grateful with what we have. There's alot of life out there that is thousand times worst than us :)