Where?

Where did my hypocritness go?
Where did my fake smile go?
Where did my laughing gas in my body go?
Where did everything go?
Where did my lies go?

I thought i'm known as " Bajet cool ". But where did my " Bajet cool " even go? I can't do anything lately. It doesn't feel the same. I tried not to care about what happened. But i actually really care and keep on thinking why am i so stupid doing something that's really fucking stupid. Why Fazril? Why did you do it? And lastly..

Where did NASHA go?